I feel like I owe an explanation about why I didn’t keep up with my last blog. Not that anyone out there cares, but I want to be able to look back and remember why I started this online journal, again. My name is Cassy Pack, and the last time I blogged was 8-14-09. Eeek! Bad blogger. Bad, bad blogger. But, I feel like I have a decent explanation for this. As you may know, at this point in my life I don’t do photography full time. I am a teacher, and last August I began subbing when the school year started. Little did I know that in the coming weeks my freedom to go from classroom to classroom as a sub would land me in a full-time, long-term sub position at a very small school in town.
From the beginning I was scared to death. You see, I have a degree in Finance, got alternatively certified as an elementary teacher, and have a passion for photography. I’m ALL over the place. So, even though I had my teaching license, I had not been able to procure a full time teaching job, and was left to sub, something I had been doing since January. But subbing is very little like actual teaching. Yes, you are in control of a classroom of students, and yes, you teach through lesson plans, go to recess, take them on bathroom breaks, etc. But with subbing, every day is a different classroom, different students, different subjects, and a lot of the time different schools. So, in my opinion, it’s very easy because you come in, keep the class from going crazy for 7 hours, then you leave. No. Strings. Attached. And I loved that. But that all changed when I accepted the long-term sub position. All at once I had to learn how to manage a classroom, grade papers, keep up with 2 gradebooks, and write lesson plans. “I’m sorry, what did you just say? Write lesson plans???” O.M.G. I hadn’t ever done that before and I had no idea where to start. Luckily, I have an abundance of friends that are teachers and immediately began drilling all of them about how I was to take on this task. They were gracious and so helpful. Eventually, I got to a point where I wasn’t crying every day and was able to breathe normally again. Jokes, people. But really I did cry every day my first couple of weeks. I mean, who wouldn’t ball after being thrown into a classroom 6 weeks into school with no lesson plans and basically told, “it’s either sink or swim”? I had no choice but to swim. I wanted to be a teacher, and I had just been given this amazing opportunity to take on a class of my own. It scared me to death. I know that God allows things to happen in our life , good or bad, so that we learn to continually lean on Him, and this past year, I did. I remember thinking I would be amazed if I made it okay through the first semester, and astounded if I lasted the whole year.
Our last day of school was May 14. And I finished. It was an amazing year. I learned so much from my peers, the students, and also my mistakes. One woman in particular took me under her wing, and I can’t thank her enough for her willingness to help me, to teach me.
So that is the story behind my bad blogging habits. I got a day job that took up all my time and energy. And to be honest, that same thing may happen again this fall. But, I wanted to start fresh and really try to make this blogging relationship work.
I’ll end this post with some photos taken over the past year. In the midst of my crazy busy life, I still managed (though I don’t know how) to take on some photography pursuits. Hope you enjoy!
First up is an engagement session with an awesome couple, Jared + Sarah:
Next, is one of the cutest 2 yr. olds, Gunner:
Here’s an engagement session I did recently with some good friends of mine, Mike + Jess:
I can’t wait to shoot their wedding this July!